After graduation I didn't really pay attention to my blog anymore, I guessed it happened to my friends that who blogs too. We were surrounded by different people, different things, different etmosphere, different industry of work, different lifestyle, social lifes, parties etc.
I think you kinda noticed about the posts from 2008 till 2012 isn't anywhere in my blog. Yes I deleted every single one of them. There is one random day I logged in to my blog and read from the first post I wrote till the last one, some of them are hilarious and I wonder why I blog about them. Some of them make no sense at all, majority are negativity, sadness, loneliness. It's not that I don't remember them, it's just I do not want negativity filled over my blog. It's not I do not want to share but I learned something throughout the years that sometimes it's not a good thing to share everything on the Internet. I preferred those memories kept in heart that's all.
When I was in Los Angeles, I started a few post about how stress and how is school was like in a different country and then I forget about my blog again and again. I know for some of you it's probably just an excuse that I'm being lazy for my blog. Nope it's just school had been taking up a lot of my time. A year had gone by and I'm located back to my homeland, Kuala Lumpur Malaysia.
Things had been very difficult for me since then, I lost my connection which I used years to built up. For some people out there just don't understand or misunderstood who am I as a person when they see me in social life. My job is a freelancer, I love beauty. I'm a Professional Makeup Artist and Professional Hairdresser and Hairstylist. I didn't started off first as a freelancer, I started off in a saloon working two job position, hairdresser and makeup artist. I quit after sometime and went to be a freelancer and it was a heck of a job. All the drinking, smoking , people judged me by that which is sad but I learned not to give a damn about it. I believed people who really knows you understands.
And yes I lost my connections cause I had been away for a year overseas. A few of my assistant or friends in the industry they quit their job and went for a different industry. People assumed I'm expensive, brag person etc cause I came back from Los Angeles so they just do not want to hire means rather hire someone cheap in their price to do the job. I don't blame them but I was thinking I wasn't cheap in my pricing before I left. So why now?
I doubted myself and wonder isit the end of my passion? There is one job in 2014 that literally almost made me want to quit my career. I had seen a lot of awful things but that job made me wonder and I wasn't happy for the entire job. There is a lot of drama, which can suffercated you in seconds. I always had hope in mind that people in my country appreciates professional like us but yet it always come down to disappointments.
I'm still standing strong in my position for now. 2015, what surprises will you bring me?
